I’ll add on that there is the possibility that you were drugged. You may be faultless in this so don’t be so harsh on yourself and feel so much guilt. Not only is it pointless and damaging, it may be unfounded in the first place.

Also if your partner is not meeting your needs- consider finding one that does meet your needs. If he’s coming over at midnight and saying he’s going to support you then bombs in, just freeloads until the morning and then has the grit to say “oh I did nothing wrong” and is not supporting you in your time of need I personally think it’s clear somethings wrong. Look at a person’s actions; actions speak more truly and much louder than words. You are worthy of love and do not have to put up with games or manipulation or toxicity.

Love yourself first 🙂