Rye,

Do you think you would be comfortable speaking about your guilt of these incidents with a therapist? A therapist will look at the situation from a standpoint to help you work through your guilt. “What if my family finds out? What if that was really who I am on the inside and I’m a terrible person? What have I done?” are feelings that I have often, but working these issues out with a therapist and an OCD specialist has been the best thing for me, and probably would benefit you.