I have an appt w/ my therapist next week. She’s great. I need to go more often.

Thank you for that interesting suggestion regarding speaking from a child’s place. My first reaction was like yeah I could do that, easy, then I started to and my brain wouldn’t even let me complete one sentence because I felt too scared and vulnerable. Not because it’s a public forum, but because it feels so scary and powerless to go to that place.

i feel scared

my mom is mean

my mom is crying

my dad is mean

my dad is kicking stuff around

i feel frozen

i dont know how to move

i hope they leave me alone

i hope they dont pick at me

i just want to color and play outside

my brother is crying

my dad is so mean to him

i wish he’d leave him alone

but at least its not me

why is my mom  crying

why is she slapping me

i have to hide

i have to be quiet

i have to shut down

i have to be tough

I have to fight

im so mad

i hate everyone

no ones gonna hurt me

ill run away

ill be alone

ill be scared

Ill be small

ill run around the forest and pretend im a fairy

ill eat sticks and grass and someone

an angel maybe will come save me