Tannhauser: I’m sorry you feel this way, I hope your life gets better soon so you no longer need those pills.
(And of course I know I’m not Hillarion, I’m me. I think you missed my point there.)
Anita: How I’m feeling is..Complicated.
I don’t necessarily see things as good or bad, everything happens for a reason. Lately I’ve been kind of emotionless, been in a very stressful relationship with a person who just.. Can’t seem to be honest with me. It’s like I have to constantly force the truth out. As a result she has made this image of me in her head that I’m controlling, doesn’t let her see her friends or go outside to enjoy life. Even though I encourage her to do so.
A broken relationship for sure, not sure how to fix it, sometimes it seems as if she doesn’t want it to be fixed. I’ve done a lot to work on my own flaws in the relationship.. But I feel like she doesn’t want to see her own flaws, and as such she can’t begin to work on them.
Causes a lot of anxiety, stress, heartache.
Apart from that, I’ve lost faith in humanity.. No matter where I turn my eyes, there’s vandalism, destruction, hate, racism and people hurting each other because of religious beliefs. It’s quite overwhelming.
Homelessness has increased in my country because of immigration politics that focus more on taking in immigrants that the government can’t even help anymore. With no focus on building affordable homes or setting up jobs. People are taking advantage of the situation and building 1 room apartments and setting the rent at 1000€ a month, it’s ridiculous. Students who go to university is forced to take these homes and pay the rent with student loans, they’ll be in-debt for the rest of their lives.
Meanwhile people who just try to survive have no where to go. I don’t have a job myself, but I try to give to the homeless when I can. It’s heartbreaking to see life this way, and it’s only getting worse by the day.
I suppose I could just say that I’m depressed, have constant anxiety attacks and feel like killing myself, put myself on medication and pretend like everything is fine. But that would be turning a blind eye to the real problem. How I feel is a reflection of life around me. I just wish people would see that, so we could all begin helping each other feel better again.
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