Hi anita,

Thank you for your response, I think you are right in regards to my love interest on FB , there is hope and not promise and the only way to become assertive is to practice it. I feel nervous just to think of being direct with someone. I want to change it so much to become an active part in my life again, but like you say this takes time.  I don’t know whether you felt the same going through the process but I almost want to distance/hide away from people I know already because I want to change so much that I almost feel nervous arranging a meet up because its that thing of working on what I actually want to say.

I too feel its ok to date as a single parent but I feel I have to honour myself and son first, whilst this man is looking forward and wanting to see me, it has to be at a time and place that is suited to both myself and my son. I am on my own discovery of finding myself and so for now I think its easier to see him as developing a friendship with him. And as a single parent it is about prioritising what needs to be of most importance right now for me and my son. I postponed the camping trip because the past week with a cold and tiredness I felt I needed to centre myself, I feel a sadness that I will not see this male as I was looking forward to seeing him but a part of me also has so much going on with myself and my son that it very much feels like a balancing act.

Lynda