hi Brandy,

it is true, I have a fear of not having a partner in my older years. I guess my one reason for always getting back together with him is because without a a partner, I feel as if a part of my heart is missing. I also do not entirely hate myself, its just that whenever we fight or break up, I always feel rejected and feel as if I was never good enough for them, although the signs are very clear that he was a toxic person in my life.