Dorothee as you are at Uni you have some brains – anxiety is not good – why do you hate yourself :

At uni (speaking as an alumni for two universities) your focus needs to be on why you wanted to go there, is it still as important to you – if it is you need to knuckle down to your studies and try to attain the best grades you can – rel/ships at uni add to stress I know! but if you are in a crisis with your ex NOW is the time to re-focus and study hard or don’t and fail or get a 3rd!

Suffering from anxiety like we do our hourly or minute by minute aim is to try many different things to aid relaxation in doing so the anxiety is reduced – positive affirmations work, you do mediation try a 10 min one on youtube  the honest guys is good avoid drugs and alcohol or other foods / drinks that cause anxiety spikes – also some great self help books there.

Hating yourself – me thinks now is the time to STOP negative thinking breeds negative thinking – so right now grab pen and paper draw a line down the middle and right dislike and love – YOU CAN put at least two things you love about yourself – such as ‘I love the way I laugh at myself when I trip up when no one is watching’ ‘I love the way I make beans on toast and throw in cheese to make a great snack’ you get the picture.

In simple – STOP the hate and inner self telling you you need this and that – today or tomorrow turn self into others and do 1 thing for somebody else such as open a door for someone, say Thank You after service given, drop some money into a charity box, the best is if no one knows you have done something such as give to a charity etc trust me start small it will change your view of you – plus you can ‘Love yourself for giving without reward’ blessings Ry x