Dear Dorothee,

Good to read more about the positive vibes that you feel and great advice that you are getting here.

You asked about what to do about the anxiety that you feel when you think of your ex doing drugs. You have broken up with him and gotten back despite all his toxicity for you. So for a complete healing it is very important that you try and maintain absolutely not contact with him whatsoever.

Regarding the concern that you still seem to have, the most practical option would be to inform his family or friends whoever cares about him about the situation with him and then let to go at that.

You need to focus more on things that are in your control and the most important thing would be your healing process and growth.

It is very common to keep thinking of the past and feeling hurt despite knowing intellectually the need to move on. Here is where mindfulness and meditation help. You feel the hurt yet you are aware and able to move on because you know you cannot do anything about the past. You keep getting the focus back to the present and keep doing your best.

Take care

Best wishes for a great future.