Hi anita,

I think you are right. He is conflicted. I think I was a different breed for him and he was trying to make sense of it all/me as I of him. I guess a man will be a man but the soldier part was indeed weird. Kiddish. Like, who does that? I guess age is just a number as he doesn’t seem to have much experience with women, either. Something like a man-child.

Also, I am not here to be used for anyone’s sexual desires so if he was only after one thing it would never of happened anyway!

I am just trying to solve what seems like a puzzle as this is on my mind constantly but I know I will release it soon/eventually (not my first go ’round.) I guess the bigger issue is how do I get out of this pattern? It’s always the same…with guys like this. They initially see me only for sex and then they get a BIG surprise…can’t handle it. Game on. I always say, don’t fall in love. HAHA.