It’s okay, and I understand what you say but sometimes if you don’t feel something naturally just let it be.

I met him in college, and I wasn’t attracted to him at first and I wasn’t ready for a relationship or sure of him, but just like you I felt that he could make me really happy so I made myself feel somehow attracted to him… I didn’t know better. I knew we’re also different in many aspects and that we have another obstacle – the distance… but I chose to try it however. I don’t regret it at all but now it causes us problems, especially for me, cause I overthink things and want more from him and the relationship..