I really don’t know Anita I feel so weak mentally and physically, I was just wondering what have I been doing for so long, my entire 30’s were wasted with him. I got to know him when I was 31 our relashionship started when I was 32 and I was entirely committed to him and I was totally blind as how time passed and what ive missed.

I sometimes feel I want to consult a phycology I want to get out of this mess coz I feel I cant eat drink or sleep or concentrate on anything. my iblings have been supportive to me with regard to this matter they talk to me console me but nothing matters I’m still finding difficult to move on. I just want to go somewhere far away and do nothing. I wish if this world come to an end I feel I don’t belong to this world.

a person who treated me so good have made me feel unwanted today. how can he move on with someone by giving so much pain to me. how can someone else be so important to him more than me.

what I did was a sacrifice to him and his family but finally this what I get all the hurt and sufferings. he could have handled this in a different way