Yeah that’s what I think too in regards to Glen. Like literally the message in itself and the response was the actual question really. But I definitely wasn’t going to press him further about it. Its relieving to know he’s exactly the same person he was 6 months ago. Me and you both know Anita that 1. There’s nothing else to be said and 2. even still Glen; the Glen we both know never uses his words to his positive advantage. There would be times there was a million things he could have said to resolve or bring light into something and he would always choose the latter. So of course that was his approach which yes the contact was out of character for him…(but people talk a good game with that you will never hear from me again crap) but not enough for me to be like oh wow that was so unlike him..blah blah blahh lol

So yea, over that. I just told myself to forget it even happened. Besides I am dating John and conversing with some other guys that I’ve met over social media that live in my area just getting to know them. I’m preoccupied enough to focus on my goals and not be distracted by drama that he would DEF bring if I had even made one more inquiry as to what he wanted.

Yeah I am ready to move back ‘home’ though. I just don’t want to feel like I am rushing it or anything.

I do think itll be the solution to a few issues I am having which is not being in that city very often, not seeing my friends as often, not knowing ppl where I live, not being in a place I find comfortable, and being able to see John more. But sooner rather than later I’d like to move back the job pays well enough that If I started it in Oct I could move by November really. But if I didn’t I could save so much money. Its just hard for me to see my motivations clearly. But my independence is very important to me as well. It may not bother most people but I enjoy going to a home that MINE and coming in and doing whatever I want and being alone. My mom is not worrisome and leaves me alone a vast majority of the time. But still I would like to just be by myself. I am going back to school in August 2019 hopefully in the city. So why not go ahead and make the transition?

Also my birthday is next week. So that’ll be interesting to see how that’s going to go. Geeezz the suspense. I kind of just set myself to have no expectations so that I don’t get disappointed. But I don’t know why I get like this lately I used to always be so excited for my birthday. Yet again, Im not really feeling this one this year. But time is going to pass regardless. I like organized things and this is kinda spotty just because my money is wavering and with that comes the ability to kind of do whatever I want. Im not in the shape I would like to be in…so many things.