Dear Airene and Anita,

I have read both your replies and you have no idea just how much better I feel.

Airene, your comments about how I feel guilty is spot on and I know I am worth more than how I have been feeling.

I have spoken to my husband about my feelings of loneliness and he did/does continue to help with this. I still ‘get my days’ but nowadays it is more that I felt I could not move on. My head and heart were stuck in the past. Time had moved on….but I wasn’t moving with it.

Anita, likewise your spot on about how I’m hurting. I am far more unforgiving with myself than anyone else. If this was a friend who had been telling me about how she was feeling, I’d tell her to forget and move on…we all make mistakes, but when it is yourself it’s so so much harder. I know what I did was wrong and certainly not one I’d do again.  I’m worth so much more but the job of forgiving myself and moving on has been incredibly difficult for me.  I did once post on another social networking site and the responses were just dreadful. I was looking to heal when all I got was abuse.  The shame intensified and so I closed my account.

Thank you so much ladies for taking the time to reply to me. You’ve made me feel so much better and I’m looking forward to a restful sleep this evening.

Should anyone else be going through/gone through same or similar and wants to chat please contact me on here and I will listen.  Thanks again, AutumnGlow