Dear anita

Thanks for your reply.

I’m not bored to listen to my mother. In fact, I value her judgement highly.  What I mean by groceries, is that she complains about the silliest things when my father buys something and we laugh about it (wrong fruit, etc).

About the cheating: maybe I want to escape reality. I know, that’s not the way to deal with life.  I’ve crossed my own boundaries by cheating.  I have mixed feelings about it: I feel broken, guilty, ashamed and at the moment itself, I feel excited. This feeling haunts me and makes me sick.