I actually think I’m wanting to know opinions of this to make myself feel better. Somehow, if I think he feels regret & guilt, it will make my heart feel better. You don’t know what this guy did to my confidence, self worth & value. It would be easy to just blow him off, but I need closure, even if its opinions from others. In my 44 years on this earth, I never thought in a million years that someone could destroy my soul the way this guy did. I feel so stupid. I did things with this guy that I feel so ashamed. Sexual things I wish I had never done. He is probably laughing behind my back to his friends, and making fun of me that I bought him all those gifts. I’m sure he is using his expensive rifle too for the upcoming hunting season. Or, maybe he’ll sell it. Who knows.