Kkasxo,

Im so sorry you have been hurt so much. The one thing I will say is that no matter who caused the damage, I think any therapist will say that it’s our responsibility and ours alone to heal ourselves. We can’t rely on other people to help us heal because we need to have the resources to do it ourselves. Because if we rely on other people to make us feel better and they ever leave, we are basically screwed.

Yes it might be their fault that they damaged us, but that’s a hard blow I think we have to deal with ourselves. I think you can do it, I already think you’re getting there, albeit slowly and as much as you can handle at a time. I’ve been reading a lot about the human mind and our capacity to get over even the worst most horrific things a human can endure and it seems, we’re built to. Even on days when we feel we will never be okay again, our instinctual healing mechanism is working away. You will come to terms with this.

Its such a pity it’s taking so long to get a counselling appointment as the insight you gain really opens your mind to aspects you may never have been able to see on your own.

I dreamt of my ex again last night, well actually, I dreamt of meeting a new guy who happened to look extremely similar to my ex and had the same personality!!! So that’s about as far as I’ve come.

I don’t know how I’m going to make it through either but I guess we will. Everyone is assured we will because it doesn’t make sense I suppose that in 3 years time we’ll still be feeling the exact same level of pain.

Will you get to the gym today?