Shelby,

You’re absolutely right in regards to medication. I think for me personally it is the idea that I have never ever been someone who would even thing i’d ever need medication because my mental state is absolutely failing me! Perhaps it is feelings of shame that I can’t in fact get through this without the help? I’m not sure. Nonetheless, I’ve decided so far to not go down that route. I’m sure as I go on to receive my counselling they may perhaps give more insight into what I may need right now to get through this.

I tend to not talk to family about any of this. The idea of them knowing just how bad things are and hurting as a result just breaks me so I stay far away from that and pretend all is ok!

I have only one friend who knows the insides and out of everything and she has been absolutely amazing throughout but yes, I do try to hold off the conversations too as I don’t want to burden her with my depressive self! So all you on Tiny Buddha have been a real life saviour!

Thank you for taking the time out to write with me!

How are you feeling this morning?