Anita – thank you for your response.

I am not interested in involving any local authorities in this instance. I think it would complicate matters further and definitely not give me the sense of calm/relief that I need. Also, I understand that you may not be able to offer in depth insight into healing without knowing the true reason behind the trauma however I am not keen on discussing this in detail. I’m sorry if that is no help to you.

Prash – Yes see, the advice to feel the feelings. This one is particularly hard for me although you and many others have mentioned that this does help in the long run. What tends to happen when I really allow all those feelings through me is the spiral into a dark and scary place and in that moment nothing else matters but the pain that I am feeling. Its overwhelming and it makes me completely irrational looking for a quick way out! It’s truly terrifying and I think maybe that’s why I have been avoiding it for so long.

Can you please go into a little more detail on CBT? Someone has previously mentioned this to me but I am not sure what it is all about.