Dear Kkasxo,

The overwhelming sensation and the scary place are all too familiar. I totally understand when you say that the pain is all that you feel. But I am certain that with time things will be better for you. Wish you the best for that.

With regards to CBT you can read more on that here – https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/therapy-types/cognitive-behavioral-therapy-0

“Feeling Good” by David Burns is a good self help book based on that. Till you attend formal counselling, this may help you.

Take care.