Thank you for the reply Anita,

I isolated myself due to the nature of depression of not wanting to be around people, but in hindsight i think the diagnosis did play a part. I worked in the medical field so i was well equipped with the insight to these mental issues, i guess subconsciously i acted out to the symptoms – because that’s what i told i had.

Im currently in the midst of relocation so it’s hard to do everything myself, but im trying to keep a healthy mindset and encourage myself constantly. I also have plans of involving myself in more outdoor activities, getting a job, find new hobbies etc.

Problem is there are times i find myself having thoughts of him, though as much as i prepared myself mentally to move on and improving myself, i dont like that tiny bit of me hoping he’d come back.