Dear anita,

sorry I didn’t reply earlier. I was busy and also I think I needed a break from analyzing my life so much.

I’m feeling better lately. For some weeks I was feeling really stressed and I think it was mainly because I wasn’t true to myself and offered something I didn’t really want. It made me think about my own behaviour a lot. I don’t want to do that again.

But at the moment it’s better. I’m drawing more, I’m drawing every day and I upload my stuff to instagram, so maybe I can connect with future clients or other artists… It’s a new form of procrastination though because I’m not working on my most important project for art school. I wanted to make a comic about my family history and myself and I got positive feedback from the professor and other students. But now I’m not sure if I really want to publish something about that and am a little stuck. But it’s better than before!

And I also did go to some sports classes and the choir again. Plus I asked the guy if he still wants to write or have contact with me. He said that the reason he didn’t write was because he was sick. Since then we are writing a little bit more.I’m trying not to worry so much about him anymore and see what happens. In any case, I think it’s better to talk to people directly instead of making up crazy fantasies in my head… I also talked with my therapist about this. She also said, like you, to better question my assumptions and see if there are other possible explanations and to check with the other person if possible.

I’m trying to help myself and I write down my goals and want to review them every week.

And how are you doing? Thank you for checking with me and for your help in this thread and the others!