Dear  John:

“I was like a little kid in a lot of ways. Jealous, afraid, timid, passive aggressive… Just like a child”-  is is my point, this falling in love feeling is a reactivation of the longing of a child to a loving mother. Just saying.

You fell in love, you experienced a wonderful feeling, repeatedly within a year of a relationship. Within that one year you also waited for her a lot, felt frustrated a lot, angry, “jealous, afraid, timid”, the words you used in your recent post. It was not all that one wonderful feeling.

But that one feeling, it was a hell of a feeling.

Well, you are learning, you do have insight and, I wish I had a way for you to turn on a switch and feel this feeling again and forever more. If I knew of that switch, I would turn it on for myself as well. As a matter of fact, if I had that switch and marketed it, I would be very rich.

anita