Dear anita,

yes I think I also have the problem, I am unsure of what I want. Maybe next time I should take a moment, before I respond to him. I feel a lot of anxiety when it comes to relationships with men. Maybe that’s also playing into it…

I think what I wanted to communicate to him was, that I’m sick. I felt an obligation to let him know, so that he could make an informed decision about whether he wanted to meet me or not. Was I putting the responsibility to make a decision on his shoulders? Probably.

Maybe I should write another message to him and explain again what I meant. But I still feel unsure about what I meant myself… I wish he would write something back and tell me what he thinks.