I think I also told him about my sickness, because I think it is the right thing to do. I want to be open and honest with him. In my opinion, it is the responsible thing to inform another person if you have an infectious illness. Then we could have decided together, if we still want to meet or not. But he didn’t respond.

After that, I stared to worry about what he thinks, how he will interpret my messages or if I sounded crazy. But this is useless and something I should definitely stop. Stop speculating about what others might think!! It only drives me crazy and doesn’t tell me what he thinks or doesn’t think.

I think I should think more about what I want.

I should think more about what I want to tell another person about myself. There is no reason to tell a stranger about all my weaknesses… (But actually I think it was not wrong to tell him about my illness, it actually means that I want to be responsible and honest.)

Those are my conclusions for now. I will try to go to sleep now!