Kkasxo,

Second big presentation done…..and I’m exhausted! My yawns are so big I look like I’m trying to swallow my own head! It does give you a confidence boost when you get positive feedback from people you don’t even know!

Im off work tomorrow as I had days to take and felt I could use a day of nothing to rest!

I see where you friends are coming from, yes, there is nothing wrong with being motivated about a certain path in life- it’s admirable. BUT, basically he’s still planning HIS idea of what life should look like. I’m only saying this cos your situation resonates a lot with me. Your ex is continuing with the life path he has always worked towards, even before you and will try and insert you into it, if it works. I’m beginning to see that two people in love who are planning a future together forever, need to make decisions together, they need to plan a joint life.

My therapist explained to me recently that his understanding of love is someone wanting to spend their life with you, they want to plan a mutual future together, they want to make YOU happy, they even put you first above themselves at times and it always involved compromise. He explained that while my ex may have ‘loved’ me in a way, he didn’t love me enough to move in with me, marry me, plan a future with me. That’s hard for me to take at the minute. I’m still digesting.

Im fully supportive of you reuniting with your ex if that’s what you choose. But I just wanted to present some other perspectives on it so you have food for thought! I’m on a low again today, maybe hormonal, but feeling so very empty without my ex. I miss him so much.

I noticed Victoria posted on her own thread. She reconciled with her ex but my understanding is that things remain to be difficult with demands and anxiety, so I hope she’s doing ok.

Oh have you counselling today?