Evening all,

Just popped on ‘cos I’m struggling today. I’m feeling really low and sad and particularly lonely. Also, I suffer from chronic pain, which has completed flared up the past few days, so it’s tough going. Pain can get in on you. Physical and emotional.

I’m faced with the reality of spending time with just myself this afternoon. So I’m trying to just ‘be’. This should be okay right? If I’m a fairly well adjusted normal person, despite being heartbroken, it should be manageable?! But I’m finding it hard. I’m lonely. I don’t like the life I have right now, I want the one I used to have with my ex, despite its faults.

Its 9 weeks since the breakup and my mentality just doesn’t seem to be shifting, despite efforts to do so. 🙁