As a girl who has been broken by a man who was my first love. I forgive him. He hurt me really bad but I do forgive him. I do think it is too soon and she needs more time, in the meantime focus on getting yourself better as you want to show her you love and care for her the right way and this isn’t achieved by begging or pestering her. She is angry and hurt now, but I do believe she will forgive you. When you are better and stronger, you can come back and talk to each other in the right state of mind because right now too many emotions are involved. No matter what, she will always be a part of your life, especially as she is the mother of your kids. You can let me know how you get on with her, I am more than happy to help.