Shelby,

I’m sorry to hear about your relative! I hope all is well and wishing her a speedy recovery!

I know the feeling of ‘nothing’ all too well. It’s quite scary at times when I get like that. It makes me think, have I really endured so much that my body has said enough is enough, you will not feel anything from this point on?! But I suppose that’s bound to happen. The whole process of withdrawal from someone, the heartbreak is utterly exhausting and unlike anything I have experienced in my life! Enjoy the reprieve while it lasts!

I understand the job is familiar at the moment and that’s okay but the fact that you are thinking about a change in the new year is amazing. You have acknowledged that you need more of a challenging position, somewhere where you can grow and develop and that is a great first step! I hope you enjoy the oncoming weeks of familiarity and enter the new year with a new mindset, fresh start! I for one cannot wait for this year to be over. 2018 has been the toughest year of my life so far, one I will never forget but hope to learn to accept as a part of my life! So I am counting down for the end! We are so close!

I have promised myself that 2019 will be my year. A year full of self discovery and development. Trying to learn about myself again. After all of the events of 2018 I feel I am a completely different person and I need to get to know her from scratch. What am I really about now?! What is it I want from my life? What makes me happy?! 2019 will be all about me and my happiness. I will no longer put others first like I always do! (I hope I can put this into practice)

Aww I’m glad you’ve got loads of plans for your week off! Also the trip away with your sister sounds amazing! I love things like that!

I am probably going to be staying indoors as trying to be sensible with my money with Christmas fast approaching! I’m going to be trying to sort all my presents over the next few weeks and have quite a long list! I can’t wait to spend Christmas with my God son (he’s 4) but I don’t go back home that often so I have never actually spent Christmas with him! I am looking forward to seeing my brother, aunties, cousins and my nanny!

Victoria – welcome back hun! I hope all goes well at your job interview! Let us know how it goes! Also sorry to hear about your relationship! What’s happened?!