Anita I want to reply to your previous post but I am a little tired and will post tomorrow. I would like to answer the two questions you asked me though.

1. “But saying so” I was speaking in a general way to a belief that the “answer to my problem” is that I cause men to be afraid of me I feel that general belief lifts any accountability on them for seeing me as someone they had no use for unless they were in need of someone to help them with thier families and I certainly wasn’t the wife or the mother. I was the helper. I feel so powerless that I feel my only power is to speak the truth.

2. “After I really speak” means after I say what is truly on my mind. I feel some men resent my having an opinion but I have also have toned it down and then I get the label of “really nice person” but it gets me no where. Things just go on the same whether sad, mad or glad.  It is this reason that I get mad. No amount of effort changes my situation and then I am sad which turns to feeling mad..

I am really tired Anita. I am not even sure I answered your questions correctly

I will post again tommorow.

Thank you,

Lisa