Lauren,

> … try to make art around it?

LOL… one of the things my wife’s tried to get me to do over the past few months of counseling has been to “do something physical, something out of the usual, to show that I’m committed and serious”… paper crafts and other creative projects have been her strongest suggestions, and in the few spots when I can forget history, I’ve done some cool things, some lame things, and most often nothing as I get hopeless and afraid again.

Just thinking about that track record has my hands shaking and heart beating… that’s what I need to undo (as the military would put it) NOW NOW NOW.

Thanks for the long term advice though… adding healthier activities is going to help a lot.