Hi Brandy,

I guess you could say that he was my only chance. But not in the sense that there is no other man in the world who would want a family etc, but because I don’t want that with anyone else. I have only recently discovered I was open to the prospect at all, so it was definitely specific to him and the type of man he was/is. I don’t think I couldn’t attract someone else in the future but I don’t believe it would be someone I feel so strongly for or am as attracted to.

I really became attracted to his chivalry and kindness and adventurous attitude. He was a man’s man too, if you can understand, handy to do everything really and I was physically very attracted to him. He was very affectionate also.

I think he loved my kindness the most I guess, but he even had difficulty saying he loved me. But it was apparent to me through his actions. He also seemed to be very attracted to me and I’m not sure what else he loved about me. He used to say I’m kind, caring, smart, funny, competent…bla bla bla….but not sure now if that meant anything.

3- That’s an interesting point. I honestly don’t know. I do look back now and think….’gosh, not ONE guy in my life has ever thought I’m worth it!’, so maybe. I just feel lost and I’m unsure how or when the lost feeling will go away. A tad dramatic – but thoughts of dying with a broken heart spring to mind! Forgive me!