Its crazy how I relate to everything you have written, and ive read the replies to this post hoping that they would help me aswell, but i still feel hopeless and like this will hurt forever. But I think, for me, its been extremely hard to move on and open up myself to life again because my mind is yet cloudy and i need to figure out what the universe was trying to teache from that experience and once i find those answers and find clarity then i might be able to move on. As for now, i cant figure it out, everytime i try to think of what this might have taught me, i just think of him and us and everything that went wrong and i feel sad. But ive given up into it and im going to let myself feel all the sadness till i dont anymore. I dont know when this will stop hurting, i dont know how long it will take, its been 8 months and still hurts like it happened yesterday, but i know for sure that it wont be like this forever and i will learn to live and love again, and you will too.