Dear Anita

I am thinking so much about leaving him and I left him 2 times but after few days we come back to eachother even one time I met one man I thought he can be fine but he was not suit for me and after 2 times I said him no sorry and I back to my married lover .I don’t know is it strong bond between us or I say lie to my self. I don’t know how go to date with cloths that he bought for me with phone is my birthday gift with all things is from him and all emotion  I have about him .one side of my character is so selfish and even maybe look so devil but I don’t know what to do with him