Kkasxo,

Thanks for the words of advice. I think things are starting to sink in and process a bit more. I’m feeling sad now, I don’t know if it was the right decision meeting him. I think it made me miss him more. But having said that, as you said before, it’s all part of the process and the back & forth can be part of all that.

Im not any clearer I guess, I feel I have an element of hope now which is probably totally misplaced. But I can’t tell if he was nice to me cos he didn’t want to hurt me more or if he liked seeing me and whether he really wants to talk over Xmas or he only said that I’m case I was super sad over Xmas?

Ok, I need to digest for this week I think- with hormones and everything and perhaps in Januaru I will be able to have a slightly new perspective.

How are you doing today?