Dear Eli:

I want to write to you next when I am rested, or after I am  rested, which I hope to be tomorrow morning,  in about sixteen hours from now.

For now, I would say,  having read your recent  post, if you are fed and sheltered now, if you live in a safe, comfortable  home, and you are warm and fed, then there is no emergency. You are okay, alive and likely to live another day.

This is how I see  my life primarily: make it to another day.

Next is: how to make tomorrow a better day?

Ending a relationship that is hurting you is a good choice, and  this relationship is hurting you. But you have to  have  a plan to end it and  keep it  in the past. You need some social support, to not be as alone as you are now. You wrote: “I don’t have any friend and any supportive family he was my every thing”- when we have nobody, we will accept anybody and  anything.

Be back tomorrow. Please do not despair, Eli. Relax best you can, take a break from thinking. You don’t have to find a solution this very day or evening, no emergency, correct?

anita