Dear Peter,

Thanks for responding during my period of feeling lost.
I don’t understand what following ones dream without attachment means.

I feel that i am standing on the crossroad where I have to choose whether I should just pursue a full time job or keep working tedious job so I can continue my art. However, the balance between money and time is difficult. More than that, I did not build up any advanced skills for art making and in HK, so I need to think through whether I can continue. I have some track record but i stop making art for 2 months already. I feel I betrayed my dream but I don’t know what to do.

I also regretted that I did not treat my dream seriously and made a good plan. I keep blaming myself but I know now is the power to change but I already don’t know how can I continue already.

I always have self-doubt and lack of self-confidence. I had low self-esteem before but I spent few years to change that.

I grew a lot as a person but I hope I can make peace with my reality and my dream.

I think being 30 is my last chance to set a goal and start another journey. Just not sure what exactly I should pursue anymore.
I just don’t want to follow the money-making mind and  want to do something enable me to go around and keep seeing the world.

gogo