again.. You’re right, thank you so much for opening my eyes. i was so blind by all of her lies, i thought she ignored me because of her depression.. that’s why i always trying to be patient of her behavior. and to be honest.. i just cant believe it how can a person be that evil.. i mean, she was so romantic and really really nice to me.. she even sent me some presents on my birthday and wrote me some lovely letters.. it really hard for me to forget about all of that, but maybe i have to move on now.

and do you think she’ll actually hurt herself when i left her? or when she’s alone? im just scared someday she’ll actually killed herself. and do you think that i should still give her a birthday gift on her birthday soon? i ever promised that to her, i just feel like i have to pay back all the things she ever gave me