Yeah that’s right, I avoid topics that I don’t want to talk about and focus on other things more.

Yeah for someone go give me their undivided attention without being present physically reduced the pressure of everything. It felt easy. So I could put on weight and not be judged. The more I was criticised before by family members, the more I started to critique myself which became a vicious circle.

I’m not entirely sure what bothered him. I guess when I was born he didn’t want another kid?  He also started resenting me for over achieving in academia- he thinks I somehow sabotaged my brothers education.

Thanks!