Happy New Year all, I am just going to continue posting on this thread as I find it somewhat therapeutic.

A quick summary- my ex broke up with me 3.5 months ago, we’ve had periods of no contact and lately I have been reaching out again.

He has no spurned my attempts at contact, nor can I say he’s been over enthusiastic about them either. I spoke to him on the phone last night after midnight and he was still working in his family business and was exhausted. He seemed curt at first but then loosened out as the conversation went on. We didn’t discuss anything serious, just chit chat and I explained that i’ve been ill and didn’t make it out for NYE.

I suggested meeting for a chat soon and he agreed. I told him there is no pressure whatsoever to do so, but I felt like he agreed because he was caught on the spot and didn’t want to say no directly.

If I’m honest, I would say he would prefer no contact, not because I think he doesn’t care but because he’s just trying to get over the breakup and it’s the best way I guess. Me on the other hand, I don’t know what I’m doing. Trying to get the relationship back I suppose, but probably not thinking about it logically or long term.

This is the most difficult thing I’ve faced in my life. I would love to be a woman who says ‘his loss’ and goes on to live her best life, but I’m just lost and miss him beyond measure. Despite the problems which have faded behind the Rose-tinted glasses it seems.