Dear anita,

but what if he is feeling so bad that he can’t call? I’m so scared. If I only disrespected myself, I can live with it and forgive myself at some point. But if I damaged him, even though I never wanted it, I could never forgive myself. Today I even went kind of dizzy when I was walking outside – that never happens to me.

He seemed like a good person, I know you don’t think so. Of course, I didn’t know him well.

The way he treated me, of course, was showing disinterest. He didn’t respond to me often and never let me be part of his life. But maybe he was really busy? My friend said, that it doesn’t make sense that he really doesn’t have time to call or text me. Because when he was with me, he was always on the phone, talking to someone else. One time, he even called someone, after texting with them on his smartphone while we were eating out. He didn’t ask me a lot of questions, didn’t seem to want to know more about my life. He never had much time for me. His work, studies and family were always more important to him. Once he wanted to come over to my place to spend the night, after he returned from a night out with his friends. He said he would return at about 2 am, so I declined. In the beginning he gave me a lot of compliments, but most were about my looks. Only once he said that he liked about me that I was so nice and that I liked people. He also said “I love you” very quickly and wanted to have unprotected sex. And he said he wanted to have a baby with me, which I found strange and thoughtless.

Those are things that I find disrespectful and show that he was not interested. But on the other hand, he told me about his work and his family. He seemed so kind and friendly. He told me I was a good person. He always asked if I was o.K. and said he could wait when it comes to sex.

While typing this, I’m realizing I can’t come up with a lot of reasons why I think he is a good person… It was more of a vibe that he gave to me, when we were together. His actions told me otherwise.