Dear Lily:

Your first paragraph reads very rational, I am impressed. I agree, it reads to me too that he wanted  to appear like a good person, and that his motivation was casual sex. I suppose you did feel better when you posted the above, calmer, and that made rational thinking possible for you. A lesson to learn: postpone problem solving thinking when distressed and resume when calm.

I don’t know about your therapist. I am glad you didn’t express yet fearing hurting her! Pay attention that you don’t resort to such an irrational thought!

My leg is a bit better. I have a similar inner critic to yours, unfortunate to me and to you. When I first got injured, cried a nd breathed quickly, panting, I felt guilty, like I am making it up to gather sympathy. I partially believed it, not sure. Isn’t it something? I mean I really was in pain, still am. I really was in shock, yet..

anita