Thank you for your replies anita, Inky and GL.

Dear anita,

I think your understanding about my problem is very close. The feeling of being trapped is getting to me.

Further, to makes matter worse, there seems to be constant bombardment of information about how a certain type of person should behave and what he is expected to do. Such information can come in form of advertisements, social media, peers anywhere. So on subconscious level I start to compare my current life with what is portrayed in all these information media. And when it doesnt match up, then I again get down with negativity.

I did try doing a course on meditation. It seemed to help for some time. But the particular technique needs 40mins of daily focussed effort. This is a deterrent and I quickly lost motivation to carry on with it and then spiralled down to negativity again.

Also now a days I have begun to feel as if all my actions (or many a times my inactions) are causing trouble to the people closest to me. And then I again get into confusion as to what needs to be done.

I can’t fully articulate my feelings in words, but I am doing the best I can. If this forum guides me in some direction then it will be a good thing to have opened up here.

Thanks.