Hi all,

Just back from the weekend away and I’m exhausted. So the overall verdict is- it was awesome. I genuinely don’t remember having that much fun since…..college probably!!! There was a powercut which resulted in us meeting new people and having an incredible night of fun and laughter. So overall it was great. However I didn’t stop thinking about my ex really. I missed him and at times, just a few, I felt so sad and almost like crying. But I realise I’m especially hormonal right now. But it physically hurt at times thinking of missing him.

I was shallow and posted a couple of online photos – even though I know he doesn’t do social media- I felt if I put it in the ether, it might get back to him sometime, through friends or whatever.

Anyway, I just don’t know when this is not going to hurt. I’m proud of myself for constantly keeping going, but I feel I will be like this forever. I still don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel and I’m no closer to figuring out a new plan for my life.

How was the weekend for ye?