Dear Anita,

I think mood is interesting.  We spoke a few weeks ago when I was suffering, about the use of medications, to help ease suffering so we can heal.  It is interesting, as so often we need this help, whether it be from a medication, person, or other treatment – to get us to a place that we are able to focus on healing again.

At the end of the day, it shows me, that as long as we are working on healing – we are going in the right direction.

That is quite refreshing.  For some it may only be medicated, for some entirely unmedicated, for many it depends on the phase.  For some it may be esoteric, removing all toxins, caffeine, alcohol, etc.  For others, it may be a life that supports different habits as well as healing.

I am learning to open my mind to what healing looks like Anita.

It does not have one face.  It has many faces, and those faces depend on the day and phase.  Such as the moon – different faces, based on so many variables – all of which are beautiful.

I think I have held onto for a very long time what right and wrong is – well of course, as mother voice has taught me good and bad right and wrong.

And more so – recently, the idea that healing is a certain way.  It is when your life looks a certain way, and MOST importantly – when I FEEL a certain way.

this would describe a destination, or an idea, or a goal.  this does not describe healing.  Healing is the process.  Healing has many faces.

2 weeks ago when I was truly suffering – well that – that’s healing too

6 weeks ago when I was on a beautiful beach feeling serene – that’s healing too

1 week ago when I had a nice glass of wine, and enjoyed a TV show – that’s healing too

A few days ago when I crept into bed early and let my thoughts wash over me – that’s healing too

Today when I did a hot power yoga class, and was able to enjoy it – that is not just healing, that is progress

And today, as I write this, it is healing, and progress