I believe you said this exact thing back in November, where your plan was to wait and see until how you felt in the new year, and you’re still feeling the same way and saying the same things. Do you think it’s possible you’re trying to drag this out because it’s a conversation you don’t want to have because it makes you feel guilty?

Also… what would happen if your ex came to you tomorrow and said she wanted to start over and be with you again and told you everything you wanted to hear? What would you do about your situation with your current girlfriend then? Because even if your ex came back, you still have this problem of your girlfriend depending on you.

Yes I do feel guilty.  I feel absolutely horrible about the whole thing.  I had reservations in july about her moving in and I went ahead with it anyways because I thought it was the right thing to do.  I know now that it wasn’t.  I have to wait until she at least gets a full time job before I feel right about telling her that we need to go separate ways.  I don’t feel right making her leave with the situation she is in now.  Either way I know I need to talk to her by the end of the month or in march for sure.  I’m hoping that this job we’ve been waiting on happens though.  I would feel a lot better if she was working full time day shift somewhere.  I really hate that I put myself in this position.  live and learn i guess.

It is funny how me feeling like this, really makes me wonder how long my ex felt like she was done before she really told me?  If she was in the same position and felt bad, which prolonged her waiting to say something.  The irony of things really freakin sucks sometimes.

I know I need to do this.  but it is very hard.  I feel like such and A$$hole for everything.  I know though that I need to do what is best for me and my girls happiness.  Right now, it just feels like for every one “good” day, there are six “bad” days.