Ps. As an update, my current partner has totally apologized for losing his temper the last time we argued, and has totally retracted saying he wanted to break up. He wants us to be able to be open and honest with one another on if we believe we can make this relationship work for the long term.

To be honest, I’m not even sure what is best for me now anymore. I love him dearly, I trust him completely to be faithful, and I am comfortable with him. That being said, I don’t feel very attracted to him, but I am terrified this more due to my emotional issues from childhoood than anything else (or maybe it’s that AND I’m still not attracted to him?) but I just don’t know. He’s an attractive man, I can say that for sure, but I don’t know if the attraction I felt with others (read: emotionally unavailable) will ever come.