To be honest, i’m not experiencing many pleasant feelings. I mostly am experiencing anxiety and wanting to communicate/ see what he is up to and hear about him and get to know him again. It feels weird to have entire days/weeks go by with nothing. I interpret communication to group messages as being meant for me / a way to communicate with me. Creating new things in life, for example changing jobs and not telling him or not having him know is super weird and uncomfortable

If I am in a fantasy, it’s still anxiety feelings because it’s me wanting to hear from him, seeing him light up my phone, take me on a date and tell me that he wants to be with me.