Hi Michelle,

I think the unpredictability of everything that bothers me most at the moment. So basically earlier last week, I honestly felt like breaking down in public, I missed him so much and tortured myself with thoughts of him moving on with someone else. This weekend I’m completely fine. Now, whether that means I’m in denial, I don’t know, but I don’t like not understanding what’s going on.

I see now that our different attachment styles most certainly did not mesh together in a practical way. I guess I felt that because I acknowledge mine and am willing to work on it, he could have done the same. But right now I have a reprieve from wanting to contact him, so I’ll take it.

My sister is due any day now, so I’m a bit on edge waiting for the call at any moment. I can’t wait till baby arrives, hopefully healthy and happy.

I hope you are enjoying new experiences every day. The travel option is certainly becoming more prominent in my mind.