Dear Jesus:

When we don’t know the reason for our feelings and actions, we are operating in the dark, we don’t know why we feel this way or that way much of the time, we don’t know why we say this or that or do what we do. It is like living in a dark room, you walk one way and you bump into a furniture, you walk the other way and you bump into a wall. When we know the reasons, it is like we find a light switch and turn on the light, now we can see.

Let’s look at what you wrote about the reasons for your feelings and actions:

“for whatever reason I was withholding all my feelings for her and was mostly negative..

At the end I was able to tell her I love you in which I haven’t through the whole relationship because of withholding for whatever reason..

She told me she wanted to hear me say I love you but I couldn’t for reasons I don’t know yet”

To make things more complicated, she too didn’t know her reasons: “I went to go comfort her she was crying to me that she’s sorry and that she doesn’t know why she did that”-

-can’t have a healthy relationship when we operate in the dark, not knowing the reasons, not knowing why.

Let’s investigate the reason for this one item you wrote, if you would like to do so:

“I was never able to tell loved ones that I love them even though I feel that ways towards people”-

-by “loved ones” do you mean your parent or parents as well, and if so, did you ever tell them you love them, if not, why, what could be the reason?

anita