Kkasxo,

Sorry for delay, it didn’t show up that you had posted.

I don’t know what’s going on with me. I don’t know where I am tbh. It’s hard to figure out. I downloaded this healing course thing from a woman who was devastated by a broken heart in the U.S, but it’s all about digging deep and listening to inner voices etc and it’s not really clicking with me. I spend a good amount of time each day trying to figure out ‘what I really want’, ‘who I really am’, ‘why I haven’t been giving myself’- honestly it’s exhausting and frustrating in equal measure. I mean, what the heck does it all mean anyway? Nothing is coming to the fore, I’m not ‘realising’ things, I’m not figuring myself out. I feel like it’s just a waste, and maybe I should just go back to dealing with life like I did before I had any insight etc. I miss my ex. Some days I feel like I don’t miss it as much, other days I feel as if I need to try out to him at every available opportunity. I feel I have no direction.

I can understand how exhausting the depressing feeling must be. I may well be on the road to that myself. What do YOU believe is the way out of it, of moving forward. Don’t think about the answer too much, I’m not talking philosophically- just asking you off the cuff- stand back- what’s the way to deal with this do you think?

A location change could very well be the thing you need, who knows? It may take you out of the cycle you’ve been in where you are?